When you’re depressed, still count your blessings

I have been depressed over the last couple of weeks. 

For one, there was the disappointment of losing our 2nd baby via miscarriage. When people talk about miscarriages or nahulog ang bata, they make it sound so clean and clinical, as if it was like a walk in the park.

Miscarriage was NOT a walk in the park.

There was a time when I lost so much blood, I collapsed and felt I was going to die.

Losing a baby is like losing a part of you. It’s small and tiny and looks like an alien, but you still feel sad for what might have been.

To top it off, work has been very stressful and challenging as well.

A handful of irate people decided to file a complaint despite being the ones who went AWOL, stole some items, and caused us business disruption. They falsely claimed that they were being maltreated by their supervisor and were then forced to destroy business operations to get my attention.

What bothered me was how they blatantly lied and was able to twist the truth to show that it was them who were the victims.

In the era of #fakenews, this was icing on the cake.

What do you do when people make false claims against you? While you had the truth in your side, enough people making false claims still destroy your reputation.

I was able to settle with them this week on my birthday. They apologized for trying to hurt me and my business, and we all hugged it out in the end.

Still, their false claims put a toll on me. And their behavior and activity were part of the reason I was so stressed and miscarried.

Business has also been slowing down.

Despite entering the Ber season, sales has been harshly low. I blame the macroeconomy to anyone who would listen, but it’s a sign of challenging times ahead.


I am reminded however that I am still very much blessed.

I have a husband and daughter who loves me, and they are happy and healthy.

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The business is weaker but it’s still chugging along, and I am glad to have the people on my team right now.

My brother and his wife had a new baby last September, and at least it’s normal and healthy.

My mother is happy just to have two granddaughters to add to her glowing list of achievements.

In times like these, count our blessings. Remember that everything happens for a reason and there’s still a lot of things to celebrate about. So:

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Happy birthday to me!

About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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3 Responses to When you’re depressed, still count your blessings

  1. Michelle Roldan says:

    Belated happy birthday. And loads of hugs to you. The coming days may be challenging but just trust in the Lord’s plan. Blessings to you and your family.

  2. wanderwahm says:

    Whenever I feel troubled before, I whine and whine and cry. I began to hate everything. But now, whenever I got pain and angst, I just listen to word of God though Pastor Jeff. I am a catholic but hearing his preach makes me feel grateful and my soul becomes light again.

  3. Happy birthday 🙂 May you find strength and healing through the beautiful people that God has blessed you with. Thank you for always sharing your wisdom through this blog! I learn so much from your writing.

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