I’m a bit tired on being in front, where I’m exposed and waiting for people to say things about me.

Why is it that people judge you so harshly when they themselves refuse to put themselves in your shoes. “She is competitive, aggressive and I dislike her,” they’d say amongst themselves.

Well, if they are as productive and as efficient, then feel free to judge. Do you think that I am fine to carry this burden, this responsibility, this drive to contribute if you yourself is carrying your own slack? However, you refuse to also carry the burden I have so I can merely relax and do nothing, I tihnk you’re being unfair.

I hate superficial people who do nothing but bicker and complain about other people. Seriously, you are completely boring. How can you even have the time to gossip about other people without telling her in her face. If you have an issue with me, be brave enough to tell it straight to my face. Otherwise, you are irresponsible and a coward and you should be ashamed of yourself.

Sometimes I wonder if I should just stop working. I have everything I need anyway. The stuff I do right now, I do because hell, I do them very very well and used to get paid top dollar for it. And you, who do not contributre stand by the side and openly criticize productive work?

Sigh, I sometimes wonder if it’s better ot study in an American university where I would be the mean rather than the exception. How I wish there was someone who was more aggressive and competitive than I am to show others that actually, I do things not because I compete with you (in all honesty, I am too bothered to even look at my neighbors as compteition), but rather because it’s my nature.

I have always been running around, organizing events, making things happen. That’s part of my DNA as you are in complaining, doing nothing and bickering. Throughout my life, I’ve always been a doer. While you?

Honestly, I don’t know if it’s myself or others who have a problem.

I don’t really have the sensitivity, consideration and patience to really care what you think because I am far too busy doing this and that to bother. I am ranting however because I think it’s very hypocritical of one to complain when one is doing nothing.

Anyway, rant out. No more waste time on you la.

In the end, I don’t really care if you like me or not.

But I do command respect.

And we both damn know that I get shit done.

And I NEVER say bad things about you.

So seriously, *bleep* you.


About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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