Rogue

I wish at times I can be sweet, docile and extremely accommodating.

Instead, I am pig-headed, opinionated, and don’t just like being led on a leash.

These days, I find it hard to make the right decisions for me.

At one end, everyone wants me to be responsible and practical.

However, what if that’s not really what I wanted?

What if half-assing is not enough to make me happy?

Then what?

I think it’s a great plan: study for 18 months, then help Trader with the business.

Why does everyone want me to keep my job to the detriment of my well-being?

I’ll hate my parents. I’ll hate Trader. And I’ll hate myself for listening to them.

Then again, it may be too early to tell.

Lord, please provide me with the guidance.

Amen.

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About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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2 Responses to Rogue

  1. blackdove says:

    “Instead, I am pig-headed, opinionated, and don’t just like being led on a leash.”
    Were you born in the year of the pig?

    “I think it’s a great plan: study for 18 months, then help Trader with the business.”
    Doesn’t sound too bad.

    “Why does everyone want me to keep my job to the detriment of my well-being?”
    It’s easy to give advice, especially if the advice doesn’t affect the one giving it. OR if the advice is in their favor.

    Do what you think is best FOR YOU.

  2. bonita says:

    Hahaha, no I was born in the year of the monkey. Getting older la. Oh no!

    Thanks for that advise Blackdove. Really doing stuff for me these days. Happy to see others are supportive.

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