Some potential?

Met someone nice this evening at a friend’s house warming party.

He’s a doctor who’s in Taiwan on a holiday. Rocker boy in high school, signed a record deal afterwards, but ended up taking up medicine and is currently practicing in one of the lowliest districts in New York because he likes dealing with “trauma” patients.

Nice… 🙂

He’s pretty cute. Tall (and I like tall, impressed with people taller than I am) and well-versed. Seems that there’s a brain behind that pretty face of his. Good so far.

But freaking New York! That’s just one Pacific Ocean away (and will take years to swim over).

So it seems that another one bites the dust.

While other women have been excited to hand him their phone numbers/emails just in case they’re in the Big Apple, I have been less keen. Hence, I mingled with all the other guests, drank the cocktails and munched on the freshly baked sweet brownies and garlic nuts. Despite appearances however, I am interested, but seriously, at this point of my life, how can I be bothered?

He calls me passive after hearing how I deal with my relationships/friendships. But how could I not? Experience has taught me that if someone wants you, they’ll find you. Otherwise, you’re just a blur on their vacation.

At the very least, I hoped to make an impression by just being myself. Maybe it’s all folly — other women would have flirted and thrown themselves at him. Unlike pragmatic ol’ me who kept her distance and only approached when welcome. At present, I have no ways of contacting him. No email, no cell, no nothing — so nothing to hold onto even if there’s a rare chance to visit New York.

Great to meet you,” I said as I waved my goodbyes at 2am in the morning. Must be silly, but I always think that it’s better to leave first than to be the one left behind. That’ll suck even more and you feel like shit when you get home.

So I say goodbye, walk a bit then close the door to that chapter despite my interest.

Then again, don’t think I’ve been as passive as I should have been.

He knows how independent I am, my philosophies of money (necessary up to a point… the rest are just fluff) and friendships (are cheap), and how passionate I am for the excitement of my job.

He knows I’m between cultures — Chinese who is born and bred in the Philippines, but lived in Taiwan and can assimilate between different environments. That I am perfectly content and mobile.

He knows how I have a pretty good clue on who I am, what I want and where I want to go. He critically tells me that I’m too pragmatic and that I should pour in more effort. Never really got the chance to dive into details, but for that, I would think that it really depends. When I find someone who is worth it, why not pour the effort? Never been able to do things half-assedly anyway, but never really got the chance.

Because once the attention has been shifted, I don’t wait. When it’s time to go because am tired, then it’s just time to go.

I hate good byes and those that come from after the club is closed, sucks the most. 😦

So I leave. I hug, say goodbye and then leave.

Maybe I’ll see him again. Maybe not.

But then again, there’s always destiny in the making. He knows my name and we have mutual friends. If there’s enough to hook him and to think that am special, he should be able to find a way. Every guy does, and the only thing a girl gets by chasing a guy is heartache and wasted time.

So I live my life. Moving forward. Onward.

If he contacts me, great. Otherwise, oh well. Another one bites the dust.

But am I interested?

Hahaha, yes, you bet I am.

He is someone I would like to get to know better, but heck, the ball’s in a guy’s court. If he’s interested enough, he will call. Otherwise, thanks for the few hours, I had a great time, and wishing you a wonderful life ahead!

Hope you’ve enjoyed your weekend. Sayonara!

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About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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7 Responses to Some potential?

  1. Always in Taiwan says:

    Exceptional.

    Not this post but the blog. Common friends. Some common experiences. Recollections of meeting you a few times. Strange. I would prefer it anonymous in a way.

    A reflection of many of my own thoughts about Taiwan, and the things I enjoy here. You are the social/public one, and I am the solitary/private one. Again, it’s a reflection.

    Yours is the only blog I have ever read in anything even approaching its entirety. Albeit that doesn’t say much given my extremely limited interest in hanging out in cyberspace or engaging in intellectual voyeurism. Still, it speaks volumes about your writing, passions and personal determination which can so captivate a reader. The irony is that I was just looking for some information on a restaurant in Taipei.

    Be good.

    As to business, you’d be surprised at how quickly this year and next will pass and this bear market with them. Nobody enjoys markets like this and downsizing etc are inevitable but your position should remain relatively immune given its necessity in all market conditions. It is unfortunate to remain overworked and underpaid for an extended period of time, but your bosses are right about paying dues.

    I remember the photocopying all too well. Sometimes I make sure to do my own just to remind myself.

    That said, place aim on the job you want to have in two years and actively make it clear/known that that is your ambition. Otherwise you may find your efforts on the CFA are spent on the CFA only. I will assume that you already have the local license(s).

  2. Dragonstalker says:

    I can sometimes say that I understand the necessity of those “games”, but most often I admit I don’t. Or to put it in other words, there is a large gap between subtly expressing your interest and chasing after someone.

    Yeah yeah, I know I’m a lazy male who would like everything delivered to his platter without work 🙂 But I definitely view it as something positive when the woman makes the first step in some kind of contact. After all, she isn’t asking me to marry her, just signaling that we might we might be better off getting to know each other a bit, and that comes off as attractive and self-confident.

    Now naturally, isn’t the point that if he thinks he should get to know you better, he will show interest anyway? Yes — but I am again and again surprised at the amount of people — me included — who are kind of walking around oblivious and missing the opportunities. As in love, so in any other area of life.

    Cheers!

  3. namelessintaipei says:

    Always in Taiwan, thank you for your kind words. Actually, you write beautifully. Do you write as well? You should. Your words grab attention. And it’s with happiness and a tinge of sadness that you are aware on who I am. It makes me curious on who you are. I am sure we know each other, but then again, Taipei is too small.

    How did you find me once again despite my recent move? That scares me a bit. I ran away because people knew. They knew me, saw what I did, and had no qualms in talking about it to others. I wanted to delete my entire blog, but 3.5 years of my Taipei life? How could I? So I moved, and yet, you found me. I don’t mind if people who care read it, but want to keep others away if possible. I cannot write when I need to censor my words… I feel stifled, trapped, tired. Do let me know.

    Otherwise, don’t worry. Life is good. Despite the recession, am quite optimistic of the future. Good people are always in need, and I like working. Thank you for the encouragement. Yes, I’ve already stated where I want to be in 2 years. If my company won’t give me that opportunity, then there will be others who will. But I owe them that chance, and slowly but steadily, it’s all coming together. Hopefully, have some good news to share soon. 🙂

    Once again AIT, thank you. Your words, your support, your encouragement. I feel strengthened, comforted. Thank you.

  4. namelessintaipei says:

    Thanks Dragonstalker, but we believe in fate. If it’s for you, it’s for you. You will find her one of these days. Just wait, and afterwards, you’ll find the wait worthwhile. 🙂

  5. Always in Taiwan says:

    I never knew about your blog before. It was only by chance that I came across it looking for details on a restaurant in Taipei.

    Frankly, I would have no interest.

    We do not know each other; we have only met (I think twice). Our interest in night life is different, and you have appeared as I was leaving. My interests and lifestyle preclude being bleary in the morning!

    My comments on anonymity are under your next post, but feel no need to hide/censor etc on my account. 🙂 You’ll understand when you see them.

  6. Always in Taiwan says:

    I never knew about your blog before. It was only by chance that I came across it looking for details on a restaurant in Taipei.

    Frankly, I would have no interest.

    We do not know each other; we have only met (I think twice). Our interest in night life is different, and you have appeared as I was leaving. My interests and lifestyle preclude being bleary in the morning! I remember, but I doubt very much if you would remember me unless it for what I am rather than who I am. LOL.

    My comments on anonymity are under your next post, but feel no need to hide/censor etc on my account. 🙂 You’ll understand when you see them.

  7. Bonita says:

    Thanks for the words of comfort. Censorship sucks, period.

    And indeed fascinating that we’ve met 2x already. What do you like to do in evenings btw? Haha, you may think I go clubbing all the time! I may be very wide awake in the evenings, but doubt that’s all I do!

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