Complete details undisclosed but gotta get this off my chest. So here’s me ranting to myself…
I’ve gotta stop overthinking too much because it’s not going to bring my love life anywhere! At first, you are hesitant given all the unconscious conservative training your parents and being brought up in a Christian environment gave you… then you change your mind half-way and give in, but kinda.
Sure, no risk no worries, but seriously Raven, when are you going to start grabbing the bull by the horns and just do something fun! Let go… you’re too uptight!
When your horoscopes say to stop the push-pull and just grab a golden opportunity, then by god, just do it!!! You don’t walk away and say, “Wait, I wanna come back” later.
Such a loser… seriously, you can’t be this way!
As it turns out, the guy was surprisingly decent and now, you’re kicking yourself for doing nothing. Hahahaha, cute too! It is quite rare to have another “M” in your life, and an attractive one at that!
Nevertheless, past is past. Just move on and leave the past behind. There’s no reason to cry over split milk. Sure, this is probably the last time you’ll ever be given the golden opportunity, but then again… it’s okay la. There should be more fishes in the sea, and similarly decent ones at that.
There’s just something about guys asking me to go home with them just to talk that puts me on defensive mode. I just can’t relax! All the time, you’re thinking, “This guy wants to do something,” and most likely they do!
So you’re like a small lamb in a lion’s den — waiting to escape and yet staying behind because you want to be spontaneous and you want to see how it plays out. But having this sort of stance does anyone no good at all.
You can’t half-ass life, you know that. Every single time you’ve grabbed the moment and actually did something, you never really regret. Those chances you missed, you did. Well, ain’t it enough time to finally just say screw this and just relax!
Oh well, he’s not going to call anyway me thinks. Hahahahaha I have a tendency to leave guys with blue balls. When can’t I ever get rid of this habit?
One look and they don’t believe that you’re conservative to the truest sense. In exchange, you show off your polite mean side. Sigh.
Next time… just do it. Okay, with the exception of the French friend. He’s got issues and he’s on a rebound. But with some other guy, just relax la…
C’est la vie!
*Sorry for the ramblings. I promise to come up with better flowing entries next time when I’m not so frustrated at myself… :0(