Big sigh

While I was having dinner, a thought went into my head: “My gosh, it’s really dull and boring here.”

Maybe it’s because I always need to accompany my parents everywhere they go, but I can distinctly feel the lack of freedom back home. It’s even a thing of comfort as I drink a Vodka Mudshaker that I bought from the grocery earlier this afternoon while I watch the TV. A sign of rebellion so to speak (my dad would go beserk if he even knew I can drink).

I look around me. People all look the same and act the same, day in and day out. Maybe because I don’t get to go out much and I miss the fast and hectic lifestyle back home…

My father’s at it again. He is comparing me to my other friends who earn more $$$ than I do (groan!). And tonight, he’s giving another sermon about my choosing my place in Taipei.

You’re very selfish,” he said. “Why did you choose a home that’s on the 5th floor without an elevator?! Your parents are very old. How can we live with you when we go and visit you in Taipei? How can dad climb up all the stairs?”

“You young people think you’re the best and first,” he continued. “But actually, you’re in the last place.”

Whatever dad.

I chose the place because I felt it was safer, more comfortable and more convenient than the other one. Yes, I admit, I’ve never really taken into account your trouble in climbing up 5 floors up. But considering that my parents only visit once every year, I think that it’s understandable that I didn’t place finding their comfort a first priority.

Aiyo.

So here I am, ranting at my blog and feeling slightly heavy. Tomorrow, I meet up with old friends and am quite excited. Hope that tomorrow will be better then!

About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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2 Responses to Big sigh

  1. Anonymous says:

    most chinese parents are like that….
    they can’t seem be satisfied with what their child had achieved. I can sympathize your dilemna towards your parents. My parents are like that as well….and I sick of it. I always do this “pasok sa tenga labas na kabilang tenga” whenever they lecture me…..

    ice8103

  2. raven says:

    Hey Ice,

    Glad to know am not the only Chinese kid who share the dilemma! 🙂

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