I am now at a crossroad.

I wonder where life is taking me?

I can’t really go back. My mom just sent me a sad email on how things are at home. I know if I go back permanently, I will not be happy. I’ll lose my spirit.

But where else can I go?

At one part, I have a security net under me… but how much is my future guaranteed? It’s only secure only if I follow my dad, and I’m sure there’ll be problems in the future regarding this.

On the other, I want to be free.

I wonder where life will take me?


About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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3 Responses to Crossroads

  1. Nero says:

    Such a tough decision. Do you have any obligations that’s why you have to go back?

  2. shanghaied says:

    interesting subject…i’m having the same dilemma as well…i’m also away from home, in Shanghai, to be exact…but i’ve been getting sick and tired of life here and don’t know where to go next….definitely, i don’t want to go back to manila…it would mean losing my freedom too but it’s not easy living alone in a foreign country, away from family and friends….

  3. raven says:

    Nero, my dad is in his early 70s, my mom is in her 60s. I don’t think they have more than 2 decades to waste. I’ve yet to learn how to manage our investments and my mom especially miss her little baby.

    Shanghaid, don’t get me wrong. I have tons of friends here, but it’s funny… it can still be very lonely. I guess, for you, an option is to start making friends. For me, I have friends, but it doesn’t seem enough anymore. I’m starting to get too restless here… 🙁

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