Update on the Vibe Adventure

Just got a call from Mike-Vibe today — long-distance from California.

Not really surprised since he’s been emailing me saying that he’d call. He said he misses me a lot, and that calling is much more personal.

Sounds like bullsh*t, but at the same time… it sounds serious.

No guy, and a Caucasian guy at that, would call a girl long-distance if he’s not serious.

I was still caught off-guard though.

It’s nothing when a guy says he’ll call. It’s something though when he REALLY calls you up!

You know the feeling, you’ve expected it… and yet, you’re not ready for it when it happens.

Suddenly, everything becomes real.

Funny thing is, I’m just not that into him.

Which, of course, has launched me in a panic.

What should I do?

If I’m not that into him, should I just shut the door closed and tell him the truth?

Or shall I enjoy the moment, considering he’s in California anyway? And since he’s made no mention of going back to Taiwan, I could just enjoy the attention. What harm would it cause anyway?

But I feel guilty. I feel as if I should just tell him not to email or call me anymore because I’m not that interested in him. But a selfish part of me would also want to enjoy this moment for all its worth. Who knows? Maybe I can make a friend out of him…

But who am I fooling really?

Is it possible to keep your options open and not hurt anyone?

That’s scary though… he called me when I was at work, and so I told him to call me after I get off work. But since there’s a 15-hour difference, he’d have to wake up earlier. Hence, he said, he’ll just set his alarm clock earlier and wake up early in the morning so he can talk to me.

Sh*t! What if he’s really serious about me?!

Geez… when you don’t have anyone, you’d want one. But when you have one, you’re dreading their calls.

WHAT IS FREAKING WRONG WITH ME?!

About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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2 Responses to Update on the Vibe Adventure

  1. eventuallypretty says:

    me too. i keep asking myself what the hell is wrong with me? there’s this perfectly nice guy waiting in the wings for me, yet i still have high hopes that things will work out with that jerk of guy (yes i agree with you on that one…haha)im seeing.

    arrggh. i wish we could just be practical always. *lol*

  2. raven says:

    EventuallyPretty, we are more practical if our lives are always ruled with our mind. But then again, what fun would that be? 🙂 Keep strong!

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