Not again!

I don’t like what I’m feeling right now. My heart thumps, and I’m more in tune with my feelings. Somehow, I am more sensitive to every single beep of my cell, my eyes darting to and fro my MSN list, more easily affected to the things around me.

Gawd, is this happening all over again? I’ve just come out from one emotional rollercoaster ride. Don’t tell me it’s happening all over again?!

How can I keep my guard up though?

But here’s what I can do, I’ll try to fight it. I don’t want to fall all over again. Most especially with someone I know I can’t be with. Unrequited love is painful. So I’ll fight it. I’ll try to distance myself from the entire situation, take things slow, and keep my sanity…

I don’t want to get hurt again… 🙁

About Bonita

I'm a forgetful person. But I think a lot. Every day, a lot of thoughts enter my head. That's why this blog came to be: first, to keep my memories alive through the years, and two, to actually see how I and my thoughts have changed. Please note that I seldom draft or edit my posts. Sometimes, if I'm not careful, I offend some of you, my readers. And while I apologize for making you feel uncomfortable, I am not sorry for being honest or for making well-intentioned mistakes. I will however be the first to admit if I change my mind. Hence, do read and proceed with caution. My life is as colorful and as boring as you make it. I complain many days, but offer some encouragement in others. Life is fluid, it changes. So keep the positives and throw away the negatives, and I do hope that at the end of the day, you will enjoy reading the blog and leaving comments here and there if my posts touches you. Happy reading!
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4 Responses to Not again!

  1. ... beachfreak says:

    My sentiments. But rollercoasters are fun. They’re exciting, but yes, it gets tiring at the end of the ride.

    Unrequited love…is not just painful but downright shitty.

    Keep strong. =)

  2. raven says:

    Hey thanks Sofia.

    Frankly, I don’t like my current state. I like being in control, but finding someone really really nice, and starting to discover that there’s a high chance you may develop some feelings for him, does wonders in taking away your control!

  3. ... beachfreak says:

    I’m in that state now and for the past few weeks have been wracking my brains how to get out of it. i fell for him and even before anything can ‘happen’ beween us, he left.

    I, like you, have this need of being in control…in and over anything.

    It’s funny, though. Just when I was taking things slow that’s when I fall flat on my arse.

    Grrr. =)

  4. raven says:

    Well, I was in that too a few weeks ago. For some insane reason, guys want you especially when you’re not drooling over them. Been in that same experience before. Met him, but before anything can happen, he left.

    I took it easy. I don’t really care whether he writes me or not, it’s his loss. Surprise, surprise… got an email today from him saying that he’s thinking about me everyday.

    My reaction, bit surprised, but taking it easy. Don’t worry, things will work out for u.

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